Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

"Once around the park, and no peaking."-Some like it hot

2008-01-27T09:17:09Z

Nothing really going on thats super intresting. My family is in this fight but they don't really talk about its like a secret fight between my sister and my brother and his girlfriend and my parents not doing anything about it. My sister is pretty upset about it all, the other night I slept in her room and we just talked about how stupid it is and how nothing is ever going to change.

No go on the lacrosse front. I am a failure when it comes to that, I just don't have it in me to do lacrosse anymore. I would rather work out in a gym yeah I know its cheating but I don't care as long as I lose some weight haha. Oh well my glory days of being a lacrosse player are defintly over.

Well like I said nothing intresting so here are some really random pictures that have nothing to do with anything really......

My pumpkin from halloween, it be Conan O' Brian!!

I have fallen in love with James and want to have his childern.

I also want this mans babies.

speaking of babies, this is my new cousin Joesph. He is a little cutie.

My hero and his totally hot glasses. I love my dad, he is crazy and the biggest person I look up to and admire I love him and want to be a hard worker just like him.

And a random geeky picture of me heehee. Like I said these are really random and have nothing to do with anything haha but thought it could be fun!

"In the name of the moon, I shall punish you.."

2008-01-22T04:17:52Z

I had a pretty good weekend. I just stayed at home and hung out with my family which was nice. I watched the british version of Pride and prejudice with my mom and I am in love with Colin he is amazing!

Today was a good day to because one there was no school and because I hung out with Laura. We did shopping and eating like most girls and then we saw 27 dresses. It was a cute movie. I really liked it because I am a sap for a good love movie. I also realized that I love james marsden, he is very good looking and can sing what more does any girl want in a man lol.

My dad is having some problems at work I guess. They are moving alot of the machines and work out of the country like to Mexico and other varouis places, so he is thinking that within the next five years he will be out of a job. He is currently looking for a new job, he is trying to stay with honeywell because they are a good company to work for but he thinks that he will have to move out of state. I don't know much more about it other then he is looking for other work and that he is really worried about it. I hope it all works out for the best. I don't think that I will move with them if they do move I will try and stay in phoenix because I really like it here but this is all so much to be thinking about before I know anything but my little mind likes to think alot.

Also I am thinking about joining the lacrosse team here at U of A I go to the practice on wed. with Caitlin to see if I will like it and see if I can even do it.

Well talk more later, word.

You complete me.

2008-01-19T05:00:12Z

List and describe as many of your pet peeves as you can, then tag someone for every pet peeve just to annoy them.
1. The game WOW I can't stand it at all. I really do belive it ruins lives.
2. My brothers girlfriend.
3. People who cut in line, like to get on a bus at my apartment.
4. When people don't take out their own trash.
5. People who don't clean anything at all.

I don't know anymore right now I am sure there are so many more but I can't think of any right now.

I tag anyone who wants to do this ^_^

I am totally watching High School musical 2!!!

Back to school, back to school to prove to daddy I'm not a fool....

2008-01-17T05:50:11Z

Yes its true I am back in Tucson which means that school has once again started. It's not that bad but that's because it was the first day. I did however meet my new roommates and they both seem nice one is Bruce and the other not to sure but I decided to just call him lemon.

Didn't really talk to them at first just the awkwardness that you have when you meet someone new. Tonight however me and Caitlin talked to Lemon for like 30min about random basic stuff and he is really nice and seems to be really cool. I think he happens to be cute but Caitlin I think is one to differ with me but whatever she has a boyfriend and I don't so I will look all I want...jk.

I am hoping to have a better semester and to be happy and make lots of friends and maybe go on awkward dates with people but over all get good grades lol.

Also I have recently become obsessed with Pride and Prejudice because of the movie so today I went and bought the book to read and this weekend when I go home for a three day weekend I will try and make my sister watch it so that way she and I can fall in love with Mr. Darcy and pray that there are men really out there instead of the two men who broke our hearts.

well I will post more later and maybe even be as daring as Laura and post some pictures of random things in my life right now.

Which road do I take..

2008-01-08T04:51:36Z

I am in a middle of a road and need to pick a path. Thats my goal this year is to figure things out and go down a path and stick with it.

I went to the doctor today and learned just about nothing with whats wrong with me. I did learn about my blood results and they came back with High blood pressure and High cholesterol and and high thyroid but not high enough to be on meds or to be to worried about I just have to be checked yearly on it and try and do things better with my health like no fast food anymore or soda which is going to be hard when I go back to school....yikes.

I am being tested for a bunch of things so we will see what comes out of those if they learn anything to what the hell is wrong with me. I really hope they do because this is crappy.

So yeah thats my update nothing to interesting but something to write about.

Word!!!

Cleaning out the closet....

2008-01-05T04:05:07Z

Literally. Throwing away so many things because I am a pack rat and no one was home so I had nothing to do today at all so I have been sitting in my old room just thinking how much its not my room anymore and how sad that makes me. I did a huge cleaning in the closet and threw away so many little things that I have no idea why I was keeping them. Some things I could not bring myself to throw away even though I know I don't need them but I want them because they mean so much to me like notes, drawings, pictures from friends and little things from when I was little like projects or stories I wrote so long ago and reading them how they make no sense at all.

My room is so lonely now because there is no bed my sister decided she liked it so they took it out and put it in her room. My dad took the desk out cause my mom wanted it in her room and all thats in there is a dresser and thats it. I know I am coming home in may to live here again but it wont be the same as it was.... I am kinda weirded out about moving back in to my house, I am going to work through the summer and try and move out again but closer. I know that my mom and dad can't afford for me to live her with everyone here like they are and they need a break somewhere and I am going to try and give them one.

Going back to tucson next sunday with two new roomates moving in. I aqm hoping everything is still there that no one broke into the apartment while I was gone....my door is locked in case the roomates get there before I get home, which I am pretty sure they will be there the friday before I come on sunday. I hope they are nice boys and wont be party boys because that will just be weird with me not being a party girl. I just hope its not to akward and that we can all hang out and be friends or it could be the other way around where we all stay in our rooms and never talk. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

I have been pretty sick lately so I am going to the doctor on monday and my feelings are all in whack I feel really sad and then happy. I can't stick to one. I mostly sad because I really miss Bryce a lot, he meant so much to me and now he is gone. I lost a huge part of me and I feel like being alone is something so scary that I can't take it. I guess when cleaning out my closet I saw so much of what I was and its scary throwing some of it away. I feel like a shell walking around I don't even know who I am and don't know what to do with this "new" person I am supposed to be without him. I guess I was so naive and in love that I didn't want to think of anything but a future with him and now my future is such a blur and I am a blur and its all so much and I hate days of thinking.....it just makes a girl cry for a good part of the day.

Well I better go out of my room for a while so people know I am still alive.

Word.

Life is upside down...

2008-01-03T01:15:49Z

Don't know where I am going or who I am anymore having a lot of things go up and down and I feel alone on most of them sure I have family but you know family can only do so much and friends and me seem to be distant and thats my fault but its not going to change either so I just take it this way. I keep a lot of things to myself I think I just need to figure things out and then go back to friends and family but right now I like being alone.

I am so upside down.

I don't know where to go or what to do anymore...... I feel like I can't talk to anyone like I don't have anyone and thats not true I know I have friends and family but I just feel like I can't talk to any one them.

I wish that stars where something that did let you wish on them and it came true life would be a lot better.

Starting new...

2007-12-13T00:19:16Z

Yes its true me and Bryce really have broken up...I thought maybe he would take it back but he didn't so I am in the process of moving on and getting over it. He wants to see other people its been brought up before and he wants to be able to know if he was really happy with me because he has nothing to compare it to so he wants to see what else is out there. Sure I understand it but doesn't mean thats how I see or want it but its a two way street when it comes to a couple and if one wants something else the other either deals with it or suffers, I am in the process of dealing with it but suffering at the same time.

On another note I have one more final which is tomorrow and then off to christmas break with my family and that will help me keep my mind of things and will be relaxing at the same time. Plus I get to hang out with friends and thats really what I need right now is just to be with people and have a good time.

Thats about it I just thought I should talk more then just a straight up hey we broke up. Ok well hope to see lots of people over break peace!

Three years....gone

2007-12-04T05:58:13Z

me and Bryce broke up.

isnt werid how life can change so fast...

2007-12-02T19:46:40Z

well I wasn't ready for life to change...

Bryce's last text: I think I want to be just friends.

me:...................

One thing that can me super happy when I am down....

2007-11-28T05:28:59Z

all things are equal when It comes to love...

2007-11-27T22:56:31Z

I want to go home.

season five of One Tree Hill comes out Jan 8th at 9pm and has a two hour special I am looking forward to it....

Post? what the!

2007-11-09T18:22:33Z

Having up and down days...one day I will be super happy and having a great life and then it can totally turn around and I can be super sad..

The more and more I am in tucson the more I want to see Bryce more ha its stupid but I miss him, he is my superhero >_<

So this morning at around 4am there was really loud banging outside and someone screaming "F*** you!!" Over and over and every time they said it they hit the wall and I guess in my apartment we have thin walls but let me tell you it woke me up and this is not the first time these people have done it but it has never been at 4 in the morning it usually earlier, anyways it gets better so again the are yelling and one person says "hold me back" and I look out my window because it sounds like it is right in front of it even though I am on the 2nd story but it was loud and clear I go out of my room and then caitlin comes out of hers we are scared of course and then we are like ok maybe they are done so we go back into our rooms and then the next thing yelled was "I have a gun" So I shoot out of bed go to caitlins room we go in the living room away from our windows and anyways Iwas so scared that they where going to use the gun that I wanted to drive to phoenix last night so that way I was safe haha...so after a while it was quite went back into bed and then someone starts singing and cheering so I turn my tv up and go to sleep somehow but let me tell you my heart was pounding like crazy....so this all just made me love Tucson even more..

so that was my night, so what happend I was late to class today because I am f-ing tired and so glad that it is a three day weekend and I can just spend time with my family and Bryce and sleep without thinking someone is going to shoot something through my window...crazy people.

Well one good thing is ONE TREE HILL comes back soon!! it looks so good that I cry every time the commercial comes on the tv!

Well word till I am almost killed again ha.

"I think I love you, so what am I so afraid of"

2007-10-19T03:05:50Z

Going Home tommorrow ^_^ I am happy. One more day of school is was a long week.

Now on to the meme's!!

from Lauralcrowned
1. Reply to this post, and I will pick 7 of your icons.
2. Then make a post (include the meme info), and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon squee.

This icon is call "future" and its an icon from futurama and it says "the future can be a lonley place" this is from the first episode and is one of my favorite shows. I love every episode and I never get bored of the show.

This Icon is called rose I know orignal, its from the Live Action sailor moon her plays tuxedo mask and is super hot! I dont really need to say much more on him ^_^ *drools*

This is called "Game Over" and its from Battle Royale its towards the end of the movie. I really liked this movie and the book was even better. He was one of my favorite characters and what can I say he is hot as well.

I call this "Best Kiss ever!" Its from One Tree Hill my two favorites characters Haley and Nathan and I love this scene. I love the show and cant wait for its return in JAN!!!! WOOHOO.

I call this one "Wild Thing" Its from sailor Moon I love them as a couple and this is one reason why they remind me of how I act around Bryce she really is my Hero. It says "I go wild whenever you are around" I think its a really cute icon.

Another sailor Moon Icon what can I say I really love this show and her as a character. This one says "A love that endures" and they are one of my all time favorite love stories!!

I call this icon Yum because well he is yummy lol. From Superman Returns a movie that I am like the only person who liked and I mean come on there are good looking men in this movie. I love the character Jimmy Olsen and he played it so well. He is also going to be plaing in a new movie called Fanboys and it just makes me love him more.

"If you where gay I would shout hurray!"

2007-10-17T18:19:27Z

Been doing good. I saw Avenue Q last night it was really good I loved it!! Went with Laura and Caitlin had alot of fun I want to see it again I liked it so much!

So I am in a bug broadway mood now heehee..

Going home this weekend (of course) because my parents cant make it for parents weekend because my dad has to work so I just said I would come up ^_^ plus Bryce is never going to come here to see me so..

Me and Bryce:
We are doing better I mean we don't talk as much or have been around one another alot I mean he calls at bad times and I always call him at bad times and these past weekends he has been doing other things so its not jut me seeing Bryce plus he gets mad really easy when we are together. He doesn't want to take a break right now because he said he doesn't want me to be gone and that he needs me right now don't get me wrong I love hearing it from him I am still just in a trance I guess with it all like I don't know if I should just make us take a break or what to do because I really Love Bryce so I haven been thinking about to much latley I try and keep my mind busy because that way I am not sad during the week.

I am going to a roadrunners game on firday with Caitlin, Nick and some pep's from work not sure if Bryce is coming or not but we will see with the way the things are going he most likely not go.

Peace!

TONIGHT IS AMERICAS NEXT TOP MODEL!!!YAY!!

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits
Life- Our lady peace

Waking Up
Peer- Chevelle

First Day At School
Mascara- Deftones

Falling In Love
Balance Beam- Blue October

Fight Song
Lithium- Nirvana (haha)

Breaking Up
4 am - Our lady peace (a really sad song kinda wired that it was for this)

Prom
Binge- Papa Roach

Life Is Good
Neholina- Puffy Ami Yumi

Mental Breakdown
Sante Fe- Rent (HAHA)

Driving
City Hall - Tenacious D

Flashback
Flight to rive dell - Fellowship

Getting Back Together
Dance with the Devil- Breaking Benjamin

Wedding
Stranger inside- Shinedown (talks about it being the worst day ha)

Paying The Dues
Smile Lines- Incubus

The Night Before The War
Forget it- Breaking Benjamin

Final Battle
Drive - Incubus

Moment of Triumph
Fashion Zombies- The Aquabats

Death Scene
Supernova Girl- Kristian Rex (no I’m not kidding lol)

Funeral Song
It’s always more then once before- Common Rotation

End Credits
Angels- Prom Kings

Why do you do what you do to me baby, driving me crazy

2007-09-28T18:39:00Z

Thats how I feel. AHHHHH SCHOOL LOL!!!

Winter oh winter come to me

2007-09-25T16:14:50Z

Its getting cooler outside and I love it! I can't wait for jacket weather because I want to wear my yellow one so bad!

Busy week. I am kinda excited for this weekend...even if I have to drive to phoenix again and I wanted to stay in tucson its cool I get to see my little sister off to her first homecoming with a date. So cute.

Ok so another thing last night being the crazy person I am I did this:

I am now the proud owner of a lip ring hahah.

also:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!
This weekend we should do dinner or something!

Ok thats about it, essay time.

In the name of the Moon I shall punish you

2007-09-21T18:16:34Z

I love Sailor Moon.
She is really my Hero!!

School = kicking me ass.

I get to see Blue October next month, thanks to Bryce! I love him!

I am going home today.

bobcrazy123 @ 2007-09-19T21:38:00

2007-09-20T04:36:14Z

I feel like my life has meaning again: Tv shows bring me so much joy.

New heartthrob and my next fan girl Obsession!

bobcrazy123 @ 2007-09-19T09:00:00

2007-09-19T16:01:04Z

I have been in like a trance latley...
I am so sleepy and I feel as if I am just going through the days.

I can't wait till friday.
Home.

I just need a hug.

bobcrazy123 @ 2007-09-17T11:24:00

2007-09-17T18:21:36Z

I hate Home Depot!

I will never drive home on monday morning ever again.

I feel like I have been hit by a train.

boom boom

2007-09-17T00:30:44Z

So Best Buy Should not approve me for money because what do I do....I buy a danm lap top why because I wanted one!!!

so now I am the proud owner of a lap top who is my baby and I love it!!!!

also New layout! Sailor Moon truley is my hero!

Finally get my bonus check tonight at Home Depot! can't wait! then I either drive down tonight and get home at midnight or leave in the morning....not sure if this storm theory is true then I will wait till tomorrow morning.

My three years with Bryce was wonderful I love him.

Homework = the end of my world.

Off to save the world!

2007-09-13T20:09:38Z

First page. I know its not that good but I kinda like it. I mean first one never is going to look that good.

bleh

2007-09-13T01:08:56Z

It was a boring day. There was a breeze in the air though so it was nice to sit in the grass and read my book while I waited for the shuttle.

I just read Speak for the 5th time. One day. New record.

I got my car back! I like it alot better then the rental car that I had, it was just not me. I love my mini-mom mobile.

Tomorrow should be a good day! I get to hang out with Laura and watch my fair lady and just be girls. I cant wait.

Currently: watching more of Romeo and Juliet they updated with more episodes so I am in heaven.

Tell me what you think!

Self.

Me and Bryce.

bleh...

2007-09-12T14:12:06Z

I am getting the hang of things in tucson, I'm not that home sick anymore (becuase I go down like every weekend..) and its fun going to college and making something out of myself.

Sept. is a very bust month for me I have my moms birthday, Rachels birthday, both of Bryce's sisters birthdays, and then my three years with bryce is this month see look how busy/broke I am in this month.

Well yeah I really don't have much to write about I am trying to kill time before I leave for school.

I started the outline of my comic! I hope to finish the line art soon and then get it done on the computer before next week so you will see that soon yay!!!!

ok I will update more later.