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"Once around the park, and no peaking."-Some like it hot

Jan. 27th, 2008 | 12:34 am
I feel...: coldcold

Nothing really going on thats super intresting. My family is in this fight but they don't really talk about its like a secret fight between my sister and my brother and his girlfriend and my parents not doing anything about it. My sister is pretty upset about it all, the other night I slept in her room and we just talked about how stupid it is and how nothing is ever going to change.

No go on the lacrosse front. I am a failure when it comes to that, I just don't have it in me to do lacrosse anymore. I would rather work out in a gym yeah I know its cheating but I don't care as long as I lose some weight haha. Oh well my glory days of being a lacrosse player are defintly over.

Well like I said nothing intresting so here are some really random pictures that have nothing to do with anything really......

When I mean random I mean random ^_^Collapse )

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"In the name of the moon, I shall punish you.."

Jan. 21st, 2008 | 08:06 pm
I feel...: contentcontent
Whats that noise: Childern of men movie is on

I had a pretty good weekend. I just stayed at home and hung out with my family which was nice. I watched the british version of Pride and prejudice with my mom and I am in love with Colin he is amazing!

Today was a good day to because one there was no school and because I hung out with Laura. We did shopping and eating like most girls and then we saw 27 dresses. It was a cute movie. I really liked it because I am a sap for a good love movie. I also realized that I love james marsden, he is very good looking and can sing what more does any girl want in a man lol.

My dad is having some problems at work I guess. They are moving alot of the machines and work out of the country like to Mexico and other varouis places, so he is thinking that within the next five years he will be out of a job. He is currently looking for a new job, he is trying to stay with honeywell because they are a good company to work for but he thinks that he will have to move out of state. I don't know much more about it other then he is looking for other work and that he is really worried about it. I hope it all works out for the best. I don't think that I will move with them if they do move I will try and stay in phoenix because I really like it here but this is all so much to be thinking about before I know anything but my little mind likes to think alot.

Also I am thinking about joining the lacrosse team here at U of A I go to the practice on wed. with Caitlin to see if I will like it and see if I can even do it.

Well talk more later, word.

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You complete me.

Jan. 18th, 2008 | 08:52 pm

List and describe as many of your pet peeves as you can, then tag someone for every pet peeve just to annoy them.
1. The game WOW I can't stand it at all. I really do belive it ruins lives.
2. My brothers girlfriend.
3. People who cut in line, like to get on a bus at my apartment.
4. When people don't take out their own trash.
5. People who don't clean anything at all.

I don't know anymore right now I am sure there are so many more but I can't think of any right now.

I tag anyone who wants to do this ^_^

I am totally watching High School musical 2!!!

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Back to school, back to school to prove to daddy I'm not a fool....

Jan. 16th, 2008 | 09:40 pm
I feel...: contentcontent

Yes its true I am back in Tucson which means that school has once again started. It's not that bad but that's because it was the first day. I did however meet my new roommates and they both seem nice one is Bruce and the other not to sure but I decided to just call him lemon.

Didn't really talk to them at first just the awkwardness that you have when you meet someone new. Tonight however me and Caitlin talked to Lemon for like 30min about random basic stuff and he is really nice and seems to be really cool. I think he happens to be cute but Caitlin I think is one to differ with me but whatever she has a boyfriend and I don't so I will look all I want...jk.

I am hoping to have a better semester and to be happy and make lots of friends and maybe go on awkward dates with people but over all get good grades lol.

Also I have recently become obsessed with Pride and Prejudice because of the movie so today I went and bought the book to read and this weekend when I go home for a three day weekend I will try and make my sister watch it so that way she and I can fall in love with Mr. Darcy and pray that there are men really out there instead of the two men who broke our hearts.

well I will post more later and maybe even be as daring as Laura and post some pictures of random things in my life right now.

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Which road do I take..

Jan. 7th, 2008 | 08:40 pm

I am in a middle of a road and need to pick a path. Thats my goal this year is to figure things out and go down a path and stick with it.

I went to the doctor today and learned just about nothing with whats wrong with me. I did learn about my blood results and they came back with High blood pressure and High cholesterol and and high thyroid but not high enough to be on meds or to be to worried about I just have to be checked yearly on it and try and do things better with my health like no fast food anymore or soda which is going to be hard when I go back to school....yikes.

I am being tested for a bunch of things so we will see what comes out of those if they learn anything to what the hell is wrong with me. I really hope they do because this is crappy.

So yeah thats my update nothing to interesting but something to write about.


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Cleaning out the closet....

Jan. 4th, 2008 | 07:44 pm
I feel...: crushedcrushed

Literally. Throwing away so many things because I am a pack rat and no one was home so I had nothing to do today at all so I have been sitting in my old room just thinking how much its not my room anymore and how sad that makes me. I did a huge cleaning in the closet and threw away so many little things that I have no idea why I was keeping them. Some things I could not bring myself to throw away even though I know I don't need them but I want them because they mean so much to me like notes, drawings, pictures from friends and little things from when I was little like projects or stories I wrote so long ago and reading them how they make no sense at all.

My room is so lonely now because there is no bed my sister decided she liked it so they took it out and put it in her room. My dad took the desk out cause my mom wanted it in her room and all thats in there is a dresser and thats it. I know I am coming home in may to live here again but it wont be the same as it was.... I am kinda weirded out about moving back in to my house, I am going to work through the summer and try and move out again but closer. I know that my mom and dad can't afford for me to live her with everyone here like they are and they need a break somewhere and I am going to try and give them one.

Going back to tucson next sunday with two new roomates moving in. I aqm hoping everything is still there that no one broke into the apartment while I was gone....my door is locked in case the roomates get there before I get home, which I am pretty sure they will be there the friday before I come on sunday. I hope they are nice boys and wont be party boys because that will just be weird with me not being a party girl. I just hope its not to akward and that we can all hang out and be friends or it could be the other way around where we all stay in our rooms and never talk. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

I have been pretty sick lately so I am going to the doctor on monday and my feelings are all in whack I feel really sad and then happy. I can't stick to one. I mostly sad because I really miss Bryce a lot, he meant so much to me and now he is gone. I lost a huge part of me and I feel like being alone is something so scary that I can't take it. I guess when cleaning out my closet I saw so much of what I was and its scary throwing some of it away. I feel like a shell walking around I don't even know who I am and don't know what to do with this "new" person I am supposed to be without him. I guess I was so naive and in love that I didn't want to think of anything but a future with him and now my future is such a blur and I am a blur and its all so much and I hate days of thinking.....it just makes a girl cry for a good part of the day.

Well I better go out of my room for a while so people know I am still alive.


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Life is upside down...

Jan. 2nd, 2008 | 05:42 pm

Don't know where I am going or who I am anymore having a lot of things go up and down and I feel alone on most of them sure I have family but you know family can only do so much and friends and me seem to be distant and thats my fault but its not going to change either so I just take it this way. I keep a lot of things to myself I think I just need to figure things out and then go back to friends and family but right now I like being alone.

I am so upside down.

I don't know where to go or what to do anymore...... I feel like I can't talk to anyone like I don't have anyone and thats not true I know I have friends and family but I just feel like I can't talk to any one them.

I wish that stars where something that did let you wish on them and it came true life would be a lot better.

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Starting new...

Dec. 12th, 2007 | 04:14 pm
I feel...: busybusy

Yes its true me and Bryce really have broken up...I thought maybe he would take it back but he didn't so I am in the process of moving on and getting over it. He wants to see other people its been brought up before and he wants to be able to know if he was really happy with me because he has nothing to compare it to so he wants to see what else is out there. Sure I understand it but doesn't mean thats how I see or want it but its a two way street when it comes to a couple and if one wants something else the other either deals with it or suffers, I am in the process of dealing with it but suffering at the same time.

On another note I have one more final which is tomorrow and then off to christmas break with my family and that will help me keep my mind of things and will be relaxing at the same time. Plus I get to hang out with friends and thats really what I need right now is just to be with people and have a good time.

Thats about it I just thought I should talk more then just a straight up hey we broke up. Ok well hope to see lots of people over break peace!
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Three years....gone

Dec. 3rd, 2007 | 09:56 pm

me and Bryce broke up.

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isnt werid how life can change so fast...

Dec. 2nd, 2007 | 12:43 pm
I feel...: crushedcrushed

well I wasn't ready for life to change...

Bryce's last text: I think I want to be just friends.


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